God is so good!

9:50 AM / Posted by Meghann McLeskey / comments (0)

to breathe and to feel invincible.

i'm on top of the world at the summit created by God.
i've never been on a mountain before.
i imagine it will be a tough climb.
but i imagine it will be so worth it.
where else can i experience this?
this feeling that i am beautiful,
and i have faith enough to move what i'm standing on,
and i am truly a child of the Greatest,
and i am me?
and God made me exactly this way.

who was it that told the stars to shine for me?
who bled himself dry for the likes of me?
who am i to forget something like that?
but i do forget.

remind me.
while i climb this mountain, show me where you brought me from.
and where i could have been.
i have done nothing to deserve You. 
i'm not worthy of the love.
why You love me, i will never ever understand.
remind me that i'm human and You died so i could mess up sometimes.
You kissed ever freckle on my face and said "it is good."
You put the sky into my eyes and said "it is good."
You decided it was okay for me to be born without toenails and said "it is good."
You created the best dad on the planet...modeled him in Your image...
and You gave him to me.
You created the most beautiful, inspiring mom...
and You gave her to me.
how dare i ask for anything when You've given me so much?
...how dare i not ask for anything when Your precious son spilled His entire being so i could ask?

i can't understand the beauty,
the power,
the majesty,
the kingdom,
the glory,
the wonder,
the splendor,
the literal awesomeness that is awaiting me.

watch over the trek. keep us safe. and bring us to You.



ready. set. don't go...

10:42 PM / Posted by Meghann McLeskey / comments (0)

twenty seven more days.

that's all.
two years flies, doesn't it?
so much changes in two years...
everything they say may be right.
but if it is, i have to ask myself,
"why don't i feel good about it?"
i must go on my gut instincts
because sometimes...
you can convince yourself in your mind about the rightness of a thing
and you try to find fault with your reasoning.
but you cant.
because however you turn it over in your mind, it comes out right.
so you have to think:
i'm just a completely unreasonable person.
i know it's right, but i don't think it is.
or, i think it's right, but i know it isn't. 
and...you could just end up thinking you're a moron
or an overemotional person
or a deficient sort of thing.
but...
really, there are some things, when you want to know the truth of them, you have to use your whole person...you have to use not just your mind and your feelings, but your whole body to make decisions.
because they're too complicated for just your mind.
or even your mind and your feelings.
they need to be considered in some larger way,
and in the largest way of all, i know in my bones that i have to go with my heart.
or whatever this is.
i have to go with my whole being when it says that i love you and nothing else matters.
even if other things do matter.
even quite a lot.
you are loved more than you could possibly imagine.
i could write pages...you wouldn't have time to read them all.
i feel so privileged to say that you were one of my best friends...
one of my most influential friends...
and just that i know you, really.
look out, world.
you're on the loose.
i love you.



...don't leave.





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