twenty seven more days.
that's all.
two years flies, doesn't it?
so much changes in two years...
everything they say may be right.
but if it is, i have to ask myself,
"why don't i feel good about it?"
i must go on my gut instincts
because sometimes...
you can convince yourself in your mind about the rightness of a thing
and you try to find fault with your reasoning.
but you cant.
because however you turn it over in your mind, it comes out right.
so you have to think:
i'm just a completely unreasonable person.
i know it's right, but i don't think it is.
or, i think it's right, but i know it isn't.
and...you could just end up thinking you're a moron
or an overemotional person
or a deficient sort of thing.
but...
really, there are some things, when you want to know the truth of them, you have to use your whole person...you have to use not just your mind and your feelings, but your whole body to make decisions.
because they're too complicated for just your mind.
or even your mind and your feelings.
they need to be considered in some larger way,
and in the largest way of all, i know in my bones that i have to go with my heart.
or whatever this is.
i have to go with my whole being when it says that i love you and nothing else matters.
even if other things do matter.
even quite a lot.
you are loved more than you could possibly imagine.
i could write pages...you wouldn't have time to read them all.
i feel so privileged to say that you were one of my best friends...
one of my most influential friends...
and just that i know you, really.
look out, world.
you're on the loose.
i love you.
...don't leave.
